*|Just feeling PISSED|*

Been saying a lot of "Fuck" recently.Actually I don't wanna use this word on my web,because it's abit off the style but not cannot help it lah...online diary mah.1st,that Beckham missed!Just the same way as he did 2 yrs ago at the World Cup,will always remember that.Take Note.y Then yesterday morning, practicing my piano as usual before going to my piano lesson. Played my scales, appeggios, LIKE SHIT!!! Scolding "Fuck" everytime I played wrongly. Then came up with these sentences:'Fuck the scales,not difficult,just that it is difficult to remember which is which,hear wrongly lah,1 of my weak points that can cost me my marks,also WHY JUST BOTH MY HANDS PLAY IT TOGETHER!!!The problem is play hands together,then always not together..damn..2nd:Fuck the Appegios,so damned difficult to play it properly.Always press the wrong notes,same for scales lah.Fuck the 3 songs,can play,but so damn difficult to bring out the styles of the songs!Songs from 3 different periods,so damn long somemore.Need to slam the keys also!..play till my hands hurt,cannot practice too much,den need stamina,coz the songs are long!Damn sight-reading,must count and do the Dynamics coz we big enough to know them.Sucks at counting.Fuck the aural,singing from memory,like SHIT,play the 2nd part i 4get the 1st part,den must sing the lower part somemore,my hearing got problem,plus short-term memory,can sing also no use.Sight-singing is alright onli must sing on time with the piano,juz hopw that it's in major and not minor key,and no extra sharp or flats or natural signs which makes it diff to sound the note.3rd section,listening also,diff the hear the difference in candences,name the chords,hearing again,den 4th section,must say ourselves, rhythms, melody, tempo, tonality, articulation, dynamics, periods and why, likely composers.English describing ability weak.PLus the last of all nerveous breakdown,practice so hard result come out unexpected.The darn exam in 2 weeks from now,less than 1 yr preparation,norm grd 8 takes 2 yrs,den 30mins of exam that can cost me a certificate/path of my future."FUCK"